Quietude
Sometimes it gets to me. Not so much the endless hustle which I endure to survive life itself: but the constant noise of the activity of the world around me. Cars driving by. People. Talking. Laughing. Shouting.
The endless noise of all the activity happening in the world simultaneously: clamor.
It gets to me. Sometimes.
Sometimes I wish to escape it. I wish that there would be no noise; no sound. No movement. No constant clamoring from the outside world and I try to ignore it. I try not to hear it. Lo how I desire to escape it! To be in a place where there is no noise! No clamor!
Quietude: I’ll long for it.
I’ll become determined to find it.
I’ll put my ear plugs in. This only lessens the noise so I’ll put my ear muffs on over my ear plugs. This at first is peaceful because the noise from the outside world isn’t getting through but instead I begin to feel the vibrations of the clamor. Like slight tremors in the earth from every passing car, faint waves of energy in the atmosphere from people laughing and crying.
It gets to me. I just don’t want to endure any impressions from the outside world any longer so I’ll take a deep breath then exhale an endless ‘Ahhh….’
I can’t hear my own voice but the vibration of my own vocalization dominates those from the outside world.
‘Ahhh….’ I vocalize after another deep breath. Then again.
Over and over.
Over until the vibration of my own voice is all I can feel resonating within me; until the clamor from the outside world can’t be felt within me anymore.
Here I’ll come as close to hearing nothing as I’ve ever been. A calmness comes from within me. It fills me with peace and – for a few moments – quietness. Then from somewhere within this quietness I’ll hear it. Not a noise. Not a clamor. Not even the slightest vibration: just a voice.
A still, small voice. A voice which resonates at exactly the same frequency as my own I guess. And I’m okay with it. I’m okay with it because it’s not from a place in the outside world. It’s from a place in the inside world.
A place called quietude.